i've got a bad case of insomnia. i wake up sweating because my room faces the sun in the morning, and i desperately want to go back to sleep because i feel so tired, and the waking hours are the worst.

sometimes i really miss anais, josh and rachael because they made me happy. i think i might be reverting back to that phase i went through a few years ago, and it makes me sick just thinking about it.

but i will still wake up every morning and plaster a wide smile on my face. because that's what good actors do. being in tsd taught me to put on a mask and continue facing your inner demons until you exorcise them. i wonder how everyone is doing now. :)